Mum, the last 2 days have been so difficult! There are so many questions Emma has for me while she is preparing to become a mummy and every time she asks me something my instincts are to call you to see what your opinion would be. We never planned for me to become a granny without you here to guide me. I always thought when the time came you would be here to show me how to do it right. Just like you showed me how to be a mum. So just came here to tell you that I miss you , and to pray that you are watching over me and the kids especially Emma right now. Although we cannot see you I know you are here 🩷🩷🩷

Aw Mum, I thought things would start to get easier but so far it just gets harder by the day. Blair will be 18 on Monday and I have never imagined reaching this milestone without you being here. I wish you had been able to tell me how we were supposed to do life without you. Because I don’t know how to do this mum. I really don’t. Then we will have Mother’s Day and my birthday soon. How do I get through days like these without you?? I wish I knew because at the moment it seems like if I celebrate them I’m forgetting you! I love you mum. Forever and always

I thought of you with love today but that is nothing new I thought about you yesterday and days before that too,I think of you in silence I often speak your name All I have are memories and your picture in a frame your memory is my keepsake with which I’ll never part God has you in His keeping I have you in my heart.